Woke up looking and feeling leaner although my weight hasn’t changed on the scales.My beloved stairway to heaven was occupied by another gym member which did upset me as I do miss it greatly, so a treadmill session for me instead. Half way through I notice someone to my left staring at me. I am currently listening to Lady Gaga resisting the urge to sing a long as loud as I can,so this is not a good time to interrupt me. I am just about to give whoever this person is a shitty look when I realise its my friend Al. We have a quick natter and then I plug back in for the last 10 minutes to practise my individual routine. I am not sure how mentally unstable I look practising my routine whilst on the treadmill but at this point I don’t really care, if it means I know it inside and out and feel confident on stage I am doing it. Spot of posing practise to complete the mornings session and I was off to work.

I was mega busy at work today but managed to get out for a walk with Gary. Now before our walk I had a near extreme rage moment in the canteen. I have noticed that one male individual at work seems to look at me alot if our paths cross in the workplace. Now a while back I wouldn’t have been bothered and would have just ignored this. However as I can no longer tolerate anything whilst being on prep, it is really starting to bother me and this man doesn’t just look, he stares at me moving around to keep watching me. It’s creepy, not cool and is making me very angry. So after being stared at walking to the microwave, I slam the door shut to signal that I am not happy with this situation. It does nothing to stop him or even think there is anything wrong. I go back to my desk angry that I have been made to feel uncomfortable. I don’t think I am doing anything to warrant this staring, like for example I thought I might have started walking funny as my lats grow, you know like short men with short men syndrome, but I don’t think I am. So by the time it comes to our lunchtime walk poor Gary gets the full brunt of the tale, I however feel great afterwards.

Today was legs day which I am starting to hate the closer I get to comp. I think its because I have so little energy I don’t feel like I am training properly. After putting it off by talking to everyone who came through the girls changing rooms whilst drying my sweaty gym pants in the sauna, I started my leg workout and managed to push some decent weights. Finished off the session with the ‘arms finisher’which did finish me off and then 35 minutes on the stairway to heaven which was so difficult as my quads were on fire.

To say today was a full day of carbs, my energy when training is reducing quite quickly and I am reaching failure at lower weights than last week. However, today was very productive and I am still feeling positive about the next 18 days leading up to comp and the day itself. I got my free Easter egg from work which I have hidden in my work drawers ready to smash into my face my first day back in work after comp – I am not sharing so god help anyone who asks.