So after a random nights sleep (not very good sleep I might add), I am feeling like the energy is coming back. Still in pain with my abdominals but mind is definiately clearer. So back on the diet today and back to full training tomorrow.

One thing I have noticed is that I don’t feel guilty for having downtime, for not going to the gym and eating ‘bad’ food. This is a first for me as I always felt guilty after a treat meal and then punished myself at the gym for it the next day. This in my mind confirms that I had to do this.

Speaking to a friend of mine today, she explained how she went through the exact same issue as me last week and had to take a couple of days off training and diet. It seems it is a common thing for stress to consume your mind at a point when you are both mentally and physically exhausted. She offered very supportive words and talked about how you can’t see it happening yourself, you need someone else to point it out to you. I am hoping that I can learn from this and understand what my body is trying to tell me so that in the future it doesn’t get to the extreme point I was at during the weekend.

Had a gentle walk out after my final meal and feel good, a little sluggish from all the food in me but good.

I downloaded a medication and focus app which I am going to start using of a morning and evening. It might help me manage my stress levels, it might not. There is only one way to find out, I will keep you posted on its effectiveness.

So all in all at day 53 things are picking up. Bring on day 52