Last night was the worst night I have had so far in prep. My body has become sensitive to spinach and broccoli. Plus the copious amounts of coffee I have been drinking has not been helping. So I have gone from looking like I am 7 months pregnant to slightly bloated this morning and feel wrecked. So today no spinach and broccoli and reduced coffee. I would like to point out I am reducing coffee on the day I go with my friend and her daughter to a cheer leading dance comp 😳

Fasted cardio done which consisted of a brisk walk into the next town to me.

So despite the repetitive dance music, children running everywhere with Pom poms and manic mothers demanding perfection, the day was going well till I got to posing practise. I broke down, both mentally and physically. I was done.

I have hit ‘the wall’ my body can’t give anymore, my mind is tired and has shut down and I won’t be able to get through the 8 weeks if I don’t do something to break the slump. Apparently this happens, so the way I have been instructed by my coach to get round this is to take 48 hours off diet and training and relax. Don’t talk about training, the diet, fitness, the competition nothing just talk shit as my coach phrased it. One thing she called out was to allow myself mentally to understand I am having downtime, enjoy myself and relax and not to panic afterwards.

So far so good. I have spent the evening eating tea with my friend instead of being sat at home by myself. I have not had extreme pains or bloating and mentally feel slightly calmer. I still feel exhausted to point of collapse but tomorrow is another day of rest and refocus. I will have the food in me and the downtime banked to then picks things back up on Tuesday and have that drive and fight to qualify for the finals in April.

I can do this, I just have to remember I am human and sometimes as humans we need to take a step back to reflect, refocus and appreciate what we have achieved so far in order to push forward. 

If it was easy everyone would do it. This isn’t easy, it’s the hardest thing I have ever done but I can’t wait for that feeling of achievement when I show off my hard work on stage.