So it’s been a million trillion months since I last blogged and that is purely because I have been studying and working on my final case study for my Nutrition course. Everything is now submitted for final marks, fingers crossed I pass and then I can start to slowly build my new future.

Every aspect of my life has been quiet and at the moment I am not helping the situation by hiding myself away from people. I am not sure if it’s the fact it’s January, officially the gloomiest time of the year or because I am on prep or possibly a mixture of both. I can’t summon the energy to interact with people socially and the more people try to involve me the more I retreat into myself. I am naturally a loner and find I am most comfortable in my own company. Don’t get me wrong I do like being around people and you will normally find that I don’t stop talking or doing stupid stuff when I am socialising. I think this makes it hard for people to understand that the other side to me, the part of me that just wants to hide away is also a normal behaviour for me. It’s what I have always done, it’s what I do to cope. The past few days have been hard and that could be due to February holding some bad memories for me – which in time I will learn to deal with and won’t affect me as much. One thing that is helping keep a bit of perspective on things and not turn into a total drama queen is working for Intouch Foundation and providing hot meals feeding the homeless and those in need every Wednesday evening. The people that we meet each week have nothing to moan about, have a smile on their faces and are truly grateful for the food we provide. Every week they restore my faith in humanity and makes me realise how privileged I am. I am hoping to do more in the up and coming months as well have volunteering every wednesday. Here is the website which tells you about the charity and how to donate if you wish to;

Intouch Foundation Charity
I have done one interesting thing in that I have started skateboarding. Obviously after one lesson I am a total pro! I only fell over twice and my implants saved me from knocking out my front teeth – totally worth the money. I have found a my little pony skateboard which I am saving up for (I will look so cool).

One downside to becoming the hermit that I am (although I am sure there are lots of downsides) is that the ability to engage my brain before running my mouth off has become faulty. A company sent a guy round to give me a quote on a new front door this week and we were going through the brochure together looking at styles and colours. He was suggesting different colours to go with the golden oak windows I have and he said that a red front door would go and that he had installed that before. I replied immediately with a strong no telling him that people would mistake me for a prostitute with a red door and would stick with the golden oak. He didn’t say anything for a couple of minutes and then remarked on how in all the years of selling doors no one had ever said that to him about a red front door. Whilst typing this I am realising how much of a tool I am!

So in summary I am as miserable as sin – why? I have no idea, but writing this blog has helped and I remember how blogging helped in my last prep. So I will try and blog once a week to clear my head and fill yours with absolute rubbish.

Disclaimer – this blog was not written in an attempt to get attention or sympathy. It was purely to help me get this stuff out of my head and to stop being a miserable cow. Peace out.