Managed to get another good nights sleep but woke up with a cracking headache so decided to take some pain killers and go back to sleep. I must have needed that extra time as I didn’t wake till 9am. I decided to have my breakfast before exercising and just enjoy it, not rush around like a blue arsed fly. My motivation was at an all time low when I woke, but once I got to the gym and got cracking on the treadmill my spirits and energy picked up a little bit. Finished my cardio and headed home for my second meal and you guessed it back to bed. I slept for another two hours and woke again to zero energy or motivation.

I decided to go and do a bit of shopping and get some errands sorted before heading back to the gym. I also decided that as I have no focus or motivation what so ever that I would take today as my rest day instead of Sunday. So after shopping I was back at the gym and back on the treadmill for another hour. My entire body is aching as I think I am reaching the point were it has truly had enough. I am booked in with Mags tomorrow for a full body revamp and hopefully she we put things back into place and stop things from aching.

My usual trip to the stables to visit the horse and muck him out was pretty uneventful which is how I planned it. As random as this sounds I am struggling to be around people, purely because of my mood and the fact I have nothing interesting to say as I have no energy. But also the food element, if people aren’t eating stuff that I want they are talking about it non stop. It is driving me crazy. So my solution is to avoid everyone over the Easter holidays (apart from Martina as we are going furniture shopping tomorrow) this will involve me going to the stables at the crack of dawn and having the most angry face in the gym so that no one approaches me.

Once home I prepped my next meals which takes me up to Wednesday next week and then they will change – I presume this will be after Sandi has analysed my latest body pics. Ate my last meals and then did some housework which included cleaning out one of the food cupboards to make way for my treats I have bought and are currently locked in my lovely new suitcase I have bought for comp day. Ironic as I am the most miserable arsehole at the moment – that’s why I bought it.

Practised some more of my routine tonight remembering to tense my arse cheeks at every opportunity and watched some videos on YouTube on the side poses as I think mine is a bit rubbish. I have routine practise with Sophie tomorrow so will get her to look at my posing too.

Oh a bit of good news, my bikini arrived and it looks amazing. I was petrified when I first opened the box as the knickers looked like a pair of child’s Y-fronts and I was not sure how I was going to squeeze myself in them. But everything fits perfectly and I cant wait to practise in it tomorrow.