Got an amazing nights sleep and woke up very refreshed and ready to go. Fasted cardio completed on the treadmill and posing practise completed quite quickly but that’s because I hit every move right first time. In fact I did shock myself a little as I almost looked like I knew what I was doing in the mirror. Again I was starving so I set off early to work but I didn’t reach full hangry levels and managed to contain myself and almost behave like a normal adult before having my breakfast.

Went for a walk in the drizzle with Gary at lunchtime and still felt full of energy afterwards. Work was fairly hectic and I was quite late with my meals after breakfast, which resulted in me missing a meal. But as I wasn’t hungry I decided not to eat it when I got in from the gym at 9:30pm. Whether or not that is the right thing to do I don’t know but its done now.

Workout today was back and I fired through the entire workout, I dropped my weights slightly and made the movements very slow and concentrated. I noticed that I reached my fatigue points at the same rep number as I would have if I was lifting heavier and faster. I think that is right but I will mention this to my coach. By slowing the movement down I noticed a difference in that I thought about the muscle I was working and could feel it work every rep – I am taking that as a good sign. I then went on to complete the legs finisher, abs routine (as I bloody haven’t been working abs for days now) and then my final hour on the treadmill.

All day I have been thinking about chocolate and my obsession for watching people eat food on Instagram is growing. So I need to distract my mind with something else every time a food thought pops in my head or if I see someone eating, as I am starting to panic that it might consume me that much that I end up caving in. But I must be strong, only another 9 days left. I cant give in now as I don’t have long to wait – so I need to be stern with myself and stop mucking around. Stick to diet, stop thinking about crap food, think about your bikini, how I am going to feel on the day and then once I get off the stage I can relax and choke myself on whatever chocolate item I so desire.